I’m surrounded by more of the same. regurgitated lames tryna align with the sane. I’ll tell you something most-definitely, I’m insane. Lost my mind a while ago hearin about all these war planes that be child slayin. everyone thinks i’m playin but i swear i ain’t goin out passive. nsa can interpret this as something violent but all i’m sayin is that i refuse to be silent. ya’ll can act like some lambs and get devoured like some ham on xmas but i refuse to sit on the assembly line. it’s about time to take note of our demise. they tryna quiet the soul, but i told em ima hold on to every ounce of that courage, liquid or gas, ima keep it solid. hollerin, “please ya’ll think for ya selves” they tellin me all this thinkin bad for my health. i swear, if this aint hell, does it really matter if it even exists? exit strategies outlined all on my wrist but i haven’t had the pleasure of having that soft goodbye kiss, my wits four steps ahead of me, swear my school teachers still remember me, 100 thoughts at a time got the legs of a centipede, need to hone that speech so i can aim it at my enemies. let your teeth into me, take that mask off and spit out that radio playin soundbites. when your third eye wide open, you’ll be askin, what rights? life bites when i don’t make it mine, depending on these institutions, tiptoein like im avoidin land mines, my mind winds, i need it to unravel. tired of feelin like im constantly in battle. missin them days i was shittin in offbrand pampers, spittin up on my rattle. is a judge have authority over me just because he has a gavel? does any of it matter when we all eventually turn back into gravel? how much more can we handle?
I fought the institution
and I got killed by a drone.
nigga dont approach her with that ataris, nigga that aint good game homie, sorry” -kendrick LMAO!!!
“Hatim Al-Assam was one of the companions of Shaqiq Al-Balkhi. One day Shaqiq Al-Balkhi said to him ‘You have kept company with me for thirty years. What have you got out of them?’ He replied, ‘I got a few useful lessons by way of knowledge and they are enough for me, for I hope for my deliverance and salvation because of them’. Shaqiq asked, ‘What are they?’
Hatim replied ‘I observed mankind, and saw that everyone had an object of love and of infatuation which he loved and with which he was infatuated. Some of what was loved accompanied him up to the sickness of death and some even up to the graveside. Then all went back and left him solitary and alone, and not one of them entered his grave with him. So I pondered and I said: the best of what one loves is what enters one’s grave and be a friend to one in it. And I found it to be nothing but good deeds! So I took them as the object of my love, to be a light for me in my grave, to be a friend of me in it and to not leave me all alone.’
I saw some people blaming others and some slandering others, and I found that that was through envy regarding money, fame and knowledge. So I meditated on Allah (SWT)’s saying, “We distribute their sustenance amongst them in the life of the world”, and I understood that the distribution was from God, the Exalted in eternity, so I did not envy anyone and I was content with the distribution of God, the Exalted.
I saw that some of mankind believed their nobility and standing to be in the size of their nations and tribes, so they were conceited because of them. Others had the opinion that it lay in the wealth of their possessions and the numerousness of their sons, so they were proud of them. Some reckoned nobility and standing lay in forcibly acquiring the property of men, in tyrannizing them and spilling their blood. One group held that it consisted in wasting money, spending it lavishly, and squandering it. I meditated on Allah’s saying, ‘The noblest of you in the view of God is the most God-conscious of you.’ So I chose God-consciousness, believing the Quran to be accurate truth, and their opinion and evaluation to be utterly empty falsehood.”